Wednesday, January 30, 2008
So i was cleaning out the drawers of my bedside table today when i came across a notebook i haven't seen in a while. Just a random fact...my drawers are filled with little notebooks which i write in every now and then. A person who thinks too much for her own good needs somewhere to spill her thoughts =) So i opened up this particular notebook and found myself staring at a 3 A4 page long entry i had written dated 17/9/06. I obviously had a lot of time on my hands but sadly i actually love writing when it's not in the form of a school essay. But anyway...i found myself quite intrigued by the things i had written just over a year ago, talking about my plans for the future. It's funny how a year later, my dreams for the future haven't changed much at all. I wont type out all three pages of stuff but sometimes i amaze myself how clearly i can communicate my thoughts through pen on paper:
"Through the years, I have discovered that through worship I connect with my Lord and Saviour at the deepest, most intimate level. It is through music that I feel God's heartbeat. Through music, I hear God's voice, I feel God's presence and I communicate with God my deepest desires, my deepest hurts, my greatest joys...I long for the day where in heaven 'all I'll do is forever worship You'..."
I have found my escape in singing. It sounds a bit strange but i think singing was what kept me sane through year 12. Every morning before i walked through the front door to go to school, i would sit at the piano for 15 minutes and sing anything that came to mind and it kept me focused for the rest of the day.
I know I haven't even started uni yet and it seems ridiculous that i'm thinking so far ahead but the other day, with nothing better to do and procrastinating, i looked up the bible colleges in Sydney and i was so excited to find there are so many bible colleges in Sydney which actually focus on just arts including: School of Creative Arts run by Christian City Church, Wesley Institute for Ministry and the Arts (which i am particularly interested in) and Hillsongs Bible College. But i also realised that it'll take me 2-3 years of full time study to get a diploma in worship ministry which i doubt I can afford which means I'll have to find time to work as well, which means I can't study full time. I also realised that if i want a theological degree (because ministry without a solid biblical foundation isn't wise) means I'll be studying for very very long time. *sigh* It'll be interesting to see how i manage to juggle work/study/ministry in 10 years time but i'll worry about that when i actually get there.
Yeps...i definitely think too much for my own good.
For now...i'm just excited about starting uni life!! :D
isn't she pretty? :D Now you see why jap tourists are constantly being seen taking photos of the place. i am soo sure the only reason sydney is facing water restrictions is because they use all their water to keep the lawns at usyd green as green can be.
posted @ 3:23 AM
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