Tuesday, January 22, 2008
So I was in Sydney yesterday, just for the day (left at 6:15 in the morning and came back at 10:15 at night) to get my uni enrollment done. SO now i'm officially a University of Sydney student =). I somehow managed to navigate my way from the airport to uni and back without getting lost, so i'm quite pleased with myself. Thank God for street signs and sydney's awesome public transport system (which i'm sure i wont be praising in a few months time) but anyhow I'm glad everything went so smoothly. My parents were so convinced the night before that i was going to get lost there and i wont be able to find my way back to melbourne.
Enrollment..i'm somewhat ashamed to say..was quite exciting. Although it's kind of a shame coz i didn't get to meet many other first year pharm people there coz students from other courses were there as well. Although all the pharm people that i did meet were asian and mostly chicks as i had expected. I eaves dropped on this parent saying to another parent: "my husband is a pharmacist, my son does pharmacy, my daughter does pharmacy.." and i thought i was passionate about pharmacy. I think i have acquired a soft spot for Sydney uni. It seems like a really nice place to hang out and it's soooo preeetttyyyy =) I joined student union (USU) only because you get 15% off food/drinks/stationary on campus and certain things outside of campus and you get entry into all these social events. Basically, it's like..if you don't join...you wont have a social life. I have a bad feeling i'm not going to get as much of a social life as i had expected...I'm still coming to terms with the fact that my uni hours will be worse than that of school's =( but oh well..i'm determined to make this year a fun filled year. I wish i had the motivation to HD all my subjects..but let's face it..there's so much more to uni life than just study. I have those little voices of our predecessors ringing at the back of my head: "it's all about finding the balance between work and play"
*CAUTION* this may be a bit emo So I have a little bit less than a month before i leave for greener pastures as Mr Mark would say. Actually, I think it's something like 3 weeks now. I'm soo excited and i really can't wait to have my feet permanently on sydney soil. More and more, I'm getting asked the question, "why are you going to sydney?" Most of the time I simply reply with "oh..coz my whole family is going up and it'll be a good experience." Truth of the matter is, there really is a lot more to it and though it's hard for people to understand, I know that those closest to me do and i guess that's the most important thing. To be honest..it's hard to answer the question and leave God out of it. I have always had a soft spot for Sydney and moving to Sydney is not some idea i just spontaneously came up with over night. It's something i have been praying about for around 5-6 years now. Basically it all comes down to 2 things...
1. I think I have mentioned it before but my plans for the future extend so much further than just studying pharm at uni. Serving God through ministry is what I'm passionate about more than anything. In recent years it has become clearer and clearer to me that God is calling me to Sydney. Doors have opened and doors have closed leading me to this conclusion. To be honest I don't really know why I'm going to sydney myself. I have no idea what God has install for me in the future but it's all about surrender..stepping out in faith and answering the call of God with a certainty in your heart that He knows best...BIG lessons I have been taught and it hasn't been easy but I have the peace and assurance I need that I am doing the right thing and that is really all I need. I know that if Sydney is where God wants me to be, he will take care of all my needs. Though i sound so sure now, I'll be honest in saying it really hasn't always been like this. So often in the past I have tried to ignore the call of God because I am so comfortable here but one thing I have learnt is that when God calls you to do something/go somewhere...it will happen and even my own selfish desires can't fight it.
2. I've been here in Melbourne for 13 years now. I've never had to change school, I have been going to the same church and grown up with the same people since school started. Let's just say..it's time to step out of my comfort zone..meet new people, live in a slightly different environment go to a different church and see for myself what is out there. People have described me as naive/innocent/ignorant perhaps of what is out there..I probably wouldn't agree with any of it but I do know I have lived a sheltered life and at times I feel quite trapped. It's time to experience new things. It really is about turning over a new leaf and starting a new chapter of my life. Though there are things I want to leave behind when I go, I'm certainly not running away. I have made a promise to myself that when i move to Sydney in three weeks time..i want nothing holding me back here in Melbourne and all loose ends are going to be tied. I want to start a chapter with no regrets..just anticipating what is ahead and no longer looking back at the past. I'll take the memories I want to take along with me and the rest I'm determined to leave behind. I'm looking forward to a new start.
So there you have it, well a lot of it anyway..just in case you were curious. I don't really know who reads this. For all I know..i'm probably communicating to a brick wall but i appreciate the support of my friends more than anything. As sweet as it is and as much as I know you mean it..."Don't go..we're going to miss you" only makes things hard for me especially when I'm still going to be seeing you guys around the next few weeks. You guys here are THE reason I have been so reluctant to go and the reason behind the many tears I have shed over leaving (you really have no idea). I know there are going to be many more tears shed with you guys over the next few weeks but hopefully my last few weeks living in Melbourne will also be weeks I'll cherish forever. I am going to miss you guys sooo much and I know this year isn't going to be easy and I'll probably be very homesick for a while but I take comfort in the fact that Sydney isnt very far away and with technology hopefully my friendship with you guys will continue on for a long time to come (hopefully Jetstar and Virgin Blue will continue to fight it out over who has the lowest prices so I can come down and see you all more often and you guys can come up and visit)
Anyway..it's too early for a proper goodbye/thank you speech. So i guess all i have to say is..see you guys around and hope to spend as much time as i can with you guys over the next few weeks =)
posted @ 8:26 PM
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