Saturday, June 19, 2010
I'm back after 5 days in Bathurst and I think I must have discovered the inner country girl in me! I loved it so much and I'm rather sad that I'm back in the city actually. It was only 5 days but I believe they must have been the most fruitful 5 days I've had all year.
My 5 days working at the pharmacy there has taught me so incredibly much! I had the opportunity to dispense heaps and heaps of medication from all different types of scripts. I was so confused at first and so worried about making mistakes (because they're so easy to make especially when you're trying to do them fast!) but the pharmacists there were so encouraging and so willing to teach. 1 of the pharmacists is a graduate/intern and the other 2 are in their first year of being registered. It was so exciting to think that they were only a couple of years ahead of me but it also freaked me out when I realised I still have so much to learn in the next year and a half. I managed to see some patients with interesting cases and I was reminded once again of just how terrible it is to be sick. When you're in a lecture theatre learning about illness every single day it's so easy to feel so detached from the reality of these illnesses but when these patients are right in front of you, it all becomes so real. I miss Bathurst...I've been encouraged to think about doing my graduate/intern year there, I guess haven't thought too seriously about it yet but that will definitely be something I shall keep at the back of my mind.
The feeling of loneliness did not hit me once in my 5 days there. What I loved about being by myself in the country was just being able to hear God with no distractions. I knew even the first night I was there that God had brought be there for a reason and now that it's over, I'm certain that God wanted me there for a reason. At the beginning of the year I had prayed that this year I'd grow up and that I wanted this year to be just me and God; to find my identity and joy in Him and Him alone. It was like God brought me to Bathurst to answer that prayer. God gave me this image of a baby bird preparing to fly. It's like I'm that baby bird just about to fly and God is just prepping me for the flight.
5 days there and it was almost like a life test. I realised I could look after myself, I realised I knew how to survive on my own. Everything I had learnt about cooking, cleaning..life skills in general, I had to use it and I discovered that I'm more capable and independant than I thought. I feel like I had known all these 'lifeskills' and had never HAD to use them to look after myself because there was never a need when I was constantly surrounded by people but this was my opportunity to see just how much I knew..and I loved it. I loved living on my own.
Being in the country was like a life detoxification. I was away from all my family and friends, away from the craziness of being in the city and all the drama it brings, away from internet and left with just God and myself. Being there made me realised how out of control my life was back at home. I realised just how many distractions I allow to get a hold of me, how much rubbish fills my life, and how complicated I had made my life become. In the country, with absolutely none of those things, it was like I was in constant fellowship with God and nothing made me feel more satisfied or fulfilled. God refreshed me so much, I feel completely renewed. I've tasted and I want more. It was only 5 days but I feel like I've come back brand new.
posted @ 2:59 AM
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